To reveal? Or to conceal? Which will it be In order to heal? * Little voice, Is it your choice To open your mouth Seeking equipoise? * Or societal pressure To expose the pressure You feel. A fear You cannot measure. * Losing control In a deep, dark hole The monster lurks Inside your soul. … Continue reading Reveal Or Conceal? A Poem
Dreams and hopes hewn in gold And silver speckled glories of imagined futures Lost in deep, broiling fog. Hardened heart that trembles in fear Of the unknown that looms, Snarling teeth and drooling maw What happened to that girl?
If you're a regular visitor to the Lair, you will probably have noticed that I haven't written any smut in a while. The dearth of my creative writing started with a very reasonable and understandable cause; I was flat out working on audiobook projects and genuinely had too few hours in the day left in … Continue reading Write or Wrong: Struggling with Writer’s Block During a Depressive Episode
Why, oh why, does my body need to eat and sleep? Do I really need to shower every single day? My legs are starting to swell up and my hip has gone to sleep from sitting too long without moving: is that bad, and should I invest in a pair of pressure stockings in order … Continue reading “Time Won’t Give Me Time”: A Moment to Breathe and Reflect Over the Holidays
Bloody hell, life can be a trial sometimes, can't it? I mean, we slog along doing our best, trying to keep that little spring in our step, but things inevitably come along to trip us up. Most times, we get lucky and we just get a little wrong-footed, but keep right on walking; other times, … Continue reading Lost: One mojo. If Found, Please Return to Jupiter Grant.
She lay back on the mattress, her head nestling into the soft down of the pillow. She craved the solace of sleep, of relaxation, yet her neck felt stiff and her head was pounding. Too many nights of grinding her teeth, of tossing and turning in a disturbed half-sleep, had set her entire body on … Continue reading One Light Burning
Whenever you hold me, I feel safe and secure. The whole world disappears, And there is only here and now. Whenever you hold me, I forget all the darkness. I feel lightened of my burdens, Because you share my load. Whenever you hold me, I feel like myself again. The woman that you love, Not … Continue reading Whenever You Hold Me
Warm smells and soft sheets All I want is to get lost And forget the world.
Last week I proudly crowed about the apparent success of my sojourn into freelancing. Well, as they say in the classics, "pride comes before a fall". It would appear that my "employer" duped me, and has done a runner with my work having had his payment rejected. Nearly £1000 of work - and nothing to … Continue reading Pride Comes Before a Fall
I was a fool to believe you, An idiot to trust. A lesson in hubris, My dreams turned to dust. I should have known better, I've been burned before. But this time, I'd hoped... Now I hope no more.