Monday – The Anxiety of the Aftermath
So, I told you about how I’ve been doing some freelance hustling. Immediately after I wrote that post, I was hired for my first ‘vanilla’ project. I slogged away, researching a topic about which I was unfamiliar. I was nervous when I accepted the job, but that was nothing compared with the fear and sob-inducing terror of having delivered the finished work and waiting for a response.
Will they like it?
Will they hate it?
Will they want something completely different from me? I followed the specs, and we discussed what they were after, but have I delivered it?
Will I get paid?
Will I get duped?
Will it lead to more work, and at a higher rate per hour next time?
What the actual fuck- how do freelancers cope with the anxiety of the post-delivery moments and the agonising wait for the verdict?
I’m so nervous right now that I have a heavy ache in my chest, a jittery feeling in my legs, and I feel like I could cry. How do people do this?
Friday – A Moment of Calm
Well, it’s been an exhausting juggling act, but I made it through the anxious aftermath. Two projects, six articles, and more jobs lined up for next week. Providing the invoices from this week’s work get paid on time, and if I could maintain the same or similar hire rate in the future, I just might be able to not just match what I make from the day job, but exceed it. It’s an uncertain world though, moments of pure fear and stress, but in the knowledge that once the tough project is finished, I can put it behind me and move on to the next.
As a result of how busy things have been, though, I haven’t had a lot of opportunities to blog, and I’ve missed it! I miss all you lovely Lair-ies! 💋 But, I am still planning to publish a SoSS this weekend, and I have a new erotic fiction (“Maid of (Dis)Honour”) being published by LELO on their blog Volonté and going live on Sunday. I’ll post the link when it’s up- hope you’ll enjoy it. And in amongst all that, I’ll be spending a “quiet” (or not so quiet, if you catch my drift 😜👄) time with the lovely fella, “H”- a much needed respite after a chaotic but ultimately rewarding week.
Thank you to all the well-wishers for your kind words of support. I adore you all, and am so thankful to you for giving me the confidence to move forward. 💓
And, finally, do you follow me on Twitter? If you do, I dare say you’ll have noticed that I’ve been sending out cryptic teasers about some upcoming erotic horror fiction. I’m in the process of finishing it off, but am pleased to say that I’ve nearly wrapped and…
Love, Jupiter x 🌺