Harm (Trigger Warning)

The constriction, this suffocation;
The choking, the struggle to inhale.
Clawing fingers of fear and pain,
Tearing at the chest, the throat, the solar plexus.

The affliction, this consuming terror from causes unknown;
Tremulous and weak, holding back the flood. Denying, refusing,

The contradiction, this bloodletting;
That which wounds while it comforts,
That scars while it heals.
Beads of magenta that emerge from pale and barren ground,
Bringing relief like exhalation of long-trapped breath.

The mortification, these stains on skin and soul;
That bring remembrance of control and denial of bondage,
Whilst evidencing incontinence and loss of willpower.
Shaming, desecrating, tainting.
Disgraceful subjugation.

The irritation; splinters of skin
Raw and itching.
The discolouration; the poisonous yellow-green ooze of cuts that run too deep.

The indifference, this lack of care;
The shame my penance, wholly deserved.
Reminding me of my weakness, my hopelessness.
My uselessness.

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